Friday, January 4, 2013


Happy 2013!

As I sit here and try to think of what to say about this upcoming year and all the goals I would like to achieve...I'm overwhelmed. There is so much!

I'm sitting in bed. It's 8pm. B-ball hour {that glorious hour that Coaster Boy and Lulu go to practice and Briggs is asleep and I don't do anything but blog} It's my favorite hour. Well, one of my favorite hours. These last couple of days, I've felt overly full. I keep saying in my head, this is MY LIFE, I'M NOT DREAMING. Sounds so dumb and super lame. However, I've longed for these days for a very, very long time.

When Ari was little, I didn't work until she was 2. However, I was so lonely. Living alone, traveling all over the place. No friends, no instagram. My world was lonely! Although I treasure those years when it was just Ari and I, I'm not gonna lie they were hard!  We moved back to Seattle and I started to work, for the 1st time since I graduated.  I always felt a little void. I wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing. I wasn't using me, for what God really had in store for me. I could feel it. I was settling for the easy. I needed easy. Every church service about finding your purpose really pulled at my heart strings. Or messages on calling, or taking steps of faith....for weeks after I would always question what I was doing, but did nothing about it. I continued to work, having too so I could pay bills and hating what I did. Although many years I worked with so many amazing people I think that covered over much of my unhappiness. The job with my amazing co-workers ended and I moved onto another role doing the same old thing {Executive Assistant} with different companies. Always knowing, this isn't what I'm supposed to be doing. Heart strings being pulled. Slowly but strongly.

Years went by.
And over these years a lady, Traci... always reached out to me. I met her in a growth group from church. She asked me to be an ambassador for Fly Fitness (post here) and she emailed me when I was prego with Briggs that she didn't think I should go back to work and that I should teach at Fly. In my dreams I thought. I don't work out. I eat like crap. When people asked me if I worked out, it was kind of a joke. In my dreams people!

But that's my point exactly. In my dreams. I am dreaming. I am now officially teaching at Fly Fitness and I am a freaking fitness person. I'm living a daily life to better my health and my body. I am with Ari before and after school. I am here to wipe all of Briggs' poopy diapers! Dreamy right?

I took the leap. I finally listened to this lady who kept pursuing me. I was really freaking scared (still am) and I did it. I quit my job that I hated so much. That sucked the life out of me.  I couldn't do it without Zeb. Honestly his support and encouragement is really what I needed. Yes, things are really different. Yes, we will be more careful with our pennies (what else is new?), and yes, I might just go crazy in a couple of months. But for now. I'm proud of myself. I don't think I've been proud of myself since...well my college graduation, but I was knocked up and hiding it so I know I wasn't that proud.

I'm so grateful that I'm here. That I am living this dream. Not a dream in a huge house or driving a brand new car, wearing clothes that are fancy. A simple dream, that I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing. That I'm helping others. To have healthier hearts. Stronger bodies. Clear minds. Is that a quote from Friday Night Lights?

I'm doing what I'm called to be doing. Finally. Finally. It's going to be a journey. And I have tons to learn. But I'm proud of where I am at. And what's to come.

Here's to 2013. For taking those leaps of faith. For becoming a better you. For doing something you never thought you could. Even if it's pea sized. It doesn't matter.  Seriously. If I can do it, you sure as heck can.


Thank you Steve Jobs for your endless {amazing} quotes about money. following your heart and living your best life. If you need some inspiration, just google steve jobs quotes.


Jill St George said...

Yay for dreams coming true! Your story is an inspiration for us all. Good advice and good luck!!!

Tanya (a Taste of T) said...

Great I'm crying. I'm so proud of you!!! #dreamsarereal

Brieanne said...

We have the same dream momma :). I LOVE it and am so thankful to God every day for my life. SO BLESSED!!! Living a life money can't buy :)

Marilyn said...

I am all teary now! What a beautiful, inspiring post. My goal in 2013 is to be more like you, my friend!

kim charie said...

You have so much to look forward to, I'm so happy for you!

Heather Conniff said...

so, so proud of you!! you did it and did it ever so perfectly. god is using you the way He indended to.. and your kids and hubby, i'm 110% they are happy, especially b/c you are happy :) xoxo

Jocelyn said...

excited, happy and proud of you


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