when nothing changes

when nothing changes...when things are promised...when expectation fail.
knowing it will be better...knowing there is more...knowing waiting is ok...although hard.

I think I'm struggling with being ok with being ok :) does that make sense? i don't know but i think that I'm ok with the fact that nothing has changed and the reason I'm ok with it is because deep down i don't want them too...

And then on a whole different hand. i love and desire things to CHANGE in every party of my life. i want more and need change. I think change is important.

Change: undergo a change; become different in essence; losing one's or its original nature.

to lose its original nature...sounds terrifying and that is probably why some people just can't do it! and other strive for it. I'm striving for it right now. Change in my life; in my heart.